I worked today, early shift. The one I actually like and would likely stay with even once the youngest graduates from college.
Ever since I woke up this morning, I’ve had a feeling like I’m on the edge of something great. I don’t know if it’s personal, with my writing, or political. So many things are up in the air, it’s hard to determine what is coming.
I only know that it’s good. Life-changing. Something that will make me cry, jump, scream, and release an immeasurable amount of stress.
This feeling has been with me for over 12 hours now. That I still feel the anticipation tells me it hasn’t happened yet. The fates are still finishing the threads, tying them off. Final offers are being prepared, votes being counted, other things being considered.
But I have more hope in me now than I have since I signed with my agent last year. I know it’s coming – whatever it is – and it will be good. It could be as small as finding out I can get a COVID vaccine started tomorrow. It could be as big as a book contract. Or even grander.
Cerridwen hasn’t blessed me with the gift to see what is to come for myself, though I’m really awesome on my pendulum for others. I’ve learned to live with this. Knowing too much of our future can change it.
It’s not easy, but I’ll wait. I trust Her. She will tell me what it is when the time is right.
BB/Chan Eil Eagal Orm